Saturday, August 04, 2007

It is the eve of my 21st birthday. Wow. I am feeling old tonight. It rained briefly tonight, the first time in many weeks. My window is open and I can smell the earth. My family is leaving for Oliver early tomorrow morning. I am sad that they are going again. I don't like living in this big empty house alone. I am trying to think of some exciting things that I can do to cheer my self up for the next week.
1. watch a movie
2. eat outside
3. drink juice
5. buy a raspberry bliss bar from the Kootenay Bakery
6. eat chocolate
7. go to the beach
8. read a book...or 10
9. write letters (the paper kind)
10. pray
11. go shopping for clothes and toothpaste and glasses
I am getting excited just thinking about all these lovely things that I can do...I'm afraid it isn't making me feel much better though. I wish I didn't have to work, and I could go camping with my parents. Oh camping. I love camping. I love being outside in the summer. I love playing frisbee and soccer and baseball. I love being with people. I wish there were more people for me to spend time with this summer. I wish I didn't feel so lonely. I wish I could trust God better with my life, rather than wishing for things that may not happen.